Sunday, November 28, 2010

Bella Italia

I could write about my week-long vacation in Italy, but it wouldn't do it justice. I will show you pictures, but they aren't enough. It was a perfect week, a blur of happiness and inspiration and love and comfort and excitement. I threw three coins in the Trevi Fountain, so legend has it that my return to Rome is guaranteed, but it may never be as wonderful as this week.  




















Monday, November 8, 2010

Bits and Pieces

None of this has anything to do with Egypt, except that it has something to do with me and I have something to do with Egypt.
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Trippers and askers surround me, 
   People I meet, the effect upon me of my early life or the ward and 
      city I live in, or the nation, 
   The latest dates, discoveries, inventions, societies, authors old 
      and new, 
   My dinner, dress, associates, looks, compliments, dues, 
   The real or fancied indifference of some man or woman I love, 
   The sickness of one of my folks or of myself, or ill-doing or loss 
      or lack of money, or depressions or exaltations, 
   Battles, the horrors of fratricidal war, the fever of doubtful news, 
      the fitful events; 
   These come to me days and nights and go from me again, 
   But they are not the Me myself. 
   
   Apart from the pulling and hauling stands what I am, 
   Stands amused, complacent, compassionating, idle, unitary, 
   Looks down, is erect, or bends an arm on an impalpable certain rest, 
   Looking with side-curved head curious what will come next, 
   Both in and out of the game and watching and wondering at it. 
   
   Backward I see in my own days where I sweated through fog with  linguists and contenders, 
   I have no mockings or arguments, I witness and wait. 
                   
                          - Walt Whitman, "Leaves of Grass"






When I thought life had some purpose
Then I thought I had some choice
I was running blind
And I made some value judgments
In a self-important voice
I was out of line
But then absurdity came over me
And I longed to lose control
into no mind
Oh all I ever wanted
Was just to come in from the cold



Tonight I'll sing my songs again
I'll play the game and pretend
But all my words come back to me 
In shades of mediocrity
Like emptiness in harmony
I need someone to comfort me


Rousseau, "Femme se promenant dans un foret fantastique"


He said, "I see you now, and you are so very young
But I've seen more battles lost than I have battles won
And I've got this intuition, says it's all for your fun
And now will you tell me why?"

The young queen, she fixed him with an arrogant eye
She said, "You won't understand, and you may as well not try"
But her face was a child's, and he thought she would cry
But she closed herself up like a fan.

And she said, "I've swallowed a secret burning thread
It cuts me inside, and often I've bled"
He laid his hand then on top of her head
And he bowed her down to the ground.

"Tell me how hungry are you? How weak you must feel
As you are living here alone, and you are never revealed
But I won't march again on your battlefield"
And he took her to the window to see.


- Suzanne Vega, "The Queen and the Soldier"









The deep waters surged in the heart of the sea

Beach days in November?  Only in Egypt...

On the beach at Ain al Sokhna, a Red Sea resort town, with Corey and Liana.  Mango juice in my hand made me a happy girl.

I took a long wander down the beach at sunset, and when I looked before me, I saw sea.  Above me, I saw sky.  And on either side of me, mountains.  If Miriam ever sang anywhere, she sang here.  If Tzipporah ever danced, she danced here.  If Moses ever did God's wonders, it was here.


The sunset was so beautiful that I wanted to try and catch the sunrise.  But, me and mornings....not such a good combination.

All the IFSA ladies - the guys weren't pretty enough to take a group photo.

I had wine on my tongue, flowers in my hair and friends all around me.  A good night out.

Oh...and then a belly dancer literally pulled me up on stage.  Traumatic.  But awesome?


Not pictured: skinnydipping at 2 am in the Red Sea with some awesome people, and all the hundreds of stars I could finally see clearly.


The Israelites should have realized...I think the Promised Land is on this side.